I had this long distance affair/relationship that lasted for almost 5 years. I know this will sound weird but we’ve known each other since high school that’s why it was so easy to connect with him and carryon a relationship even on a long distance situation. Even if we don’t see each other personally and no physical contact, the connection and emotions were so real. I knew that he is married and I, on the other hand had problems with my own marriage at that time. I am now separated for about 2 years already. About a month ago, he told me thru text message that he is ending the relationship. During the 5-year relationship, I’ve tried so many times to prepare myself for this thing to happen. There were number of times when he said goodbye, but after few months, he would call again and back in our relationship. I thought I got used to this situation already, but somehow I feel and I know that this time its for good and it’s devastating. I know this is the right thing to do but moving on is so hard for me. I get depressed, feeling alone and rejected. I thought the breakup of this kind of relationship won’t be as hard but it is. I am embarassed to confide and tell this to my friends as I pretty much know what to expect. I feel so alone and devastated. I am trying my best to move on and to not get caught in this situation again, but I am struggling. I hope someone can help me ease the pain and loneliness.